Hard times

So I am in the midst of my crunch week... or month... It seems that they always try and get you while you are down. I don't know why, but I have no motivation to do any of my work. Every time I try and start something I get distracted and get nothing done. I have wasted 8 hours today after not doing anything yesterday for the horrible football game. (we lost 51-31). It was miserable. Anyways, it seems like things just aren't working out right. Someone is upset at me and it really is for no reason at all. For some odd reason it seems as if they are just taking things out on me. I have an interview for a job at the end of the month and can't make a dinner the night before. Yet because of this, I am being called selfish and I just don't get it. The other person is now resorting to even more drastic tactics, now calling me socially unjust. What utter bullcr@p. It just upsets me. It seems as if i have become more distant from some of my friends and I am now just really down. Nothing seems to pick me up, except my gf. She still makes me smile, even when I know I have work I should be doing. It just seems though as if I am in a dark time of life. My prayer life is shot... and I really struggle when trying to focus on God. It seemed so easy before but now I struggle to pray an Our Father. Its rather rough, especially when others are counting on you to help them out. I just feel lost and writing this helps me just voice it, even if others read it. Maybe they will see why things are so confusing. Maybe I will reread this in the future and understand what God is doing. As for now, I am still lost and searching for him. Well thats it for now.

God Bless,
ForeverSearching77